Hi bloggies!

I have to tell you up front that this isn't going to be a "real" post, filled with pics of delicious eats and such. I just wanted to pop in to share some thoughts about the insensitivity some people demonstrate towards people with an eating disorder. Allow me to explain....

Most of my friends who know I have an eating disorder are super supportive of my recovery. On an every day basis, most of them don't even mention it, but I always know they are there if I need someone to talk to. However, I have one friend who means well but always seems to do more harm than good.

I told this friend about my eating disorder way back last winter when I first entered the recovery phase. I'm not sure why, but he was one of the first friends I told. Thinking back, it was probably stupid to tell him. Over the past month or so, he has done a couple of things that really got Ed talking.

A few weeks ago we were walking, and he wanted to give me a piggy-back ride. When I got on his back, his first comment was, "I think you are finally getting heavier Kristy!" I know he was not implying that I was fat or anything, but Ed turns his simple statement into, "omg...you're getting huge!!" I know this is irrational, but I just wish my friend wouldn't make comments like this.

If his last comment wasn't bad enough, he made another comment that really got on my nerves a couple weeks ago. While we were sitting down, he started poking my sides for some reason. If that wasn't bad enough, he blurted out, "the chub is coming back". He assured me that this was indeed a good thing, but why would anyone say this to someone trying to recover from an eating disorder? I don't know how much weight I have gained, but I know that my bmi is still very low. Despite what Ed may tell me, I am not CHUBBY! I wouldn't tell anyone that their flab was returning whether they were overweight, underweight, an Ed patient, or not.

By the way, who ever said that chub is a bad thing?

Sooo..cute!

Last night, my friend did something that really ticked me off. Actually, the fact that he did it was so absurd I was more amused than mad. It was still very insensitive nonetheless. He posted a link to this video on my facebook wall:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HyfcOriVKBM 

Seriously??? Does he understand how hard it is for people with Eds to "just eat it"? I know that his intentons weren't cruel, but I just wish he understood how serious eating disorders are and that they are not a choice. If anorexics could "just eat it", there would be millions of girls (and boys) not struggling.

I'm sorry to be so negative; I really don't want to be. On a positive note, I haven't let his comments/actions interfere with my eating. Yes, he has got Ed talking, but at least I can recognize that it is Ed talking and being irrational and not me. I need to accept the fact that there are going to people I come across who make disrespectful, dumb comments that get Ed going. At the end of the day, though, I am bigger than Ed, and I know that life with out Ed is "infinity and beyond" times better than life with Ed!

That's all : )

Love you all!

Excuse Me While I Melt!

My Gosh, it's hot out today. It was so hot, I seriously thought I was going to melt at points during the day. I think the thermometer topped out around 95 degrees!

Hot enough for ya??

I got to spend the sizzling day at work with hot, tired, and grumpy campers. Lucky me! Really though, it was nice to be back to work after a long and lazy weekend. I just wish it wasn't so hot. We didn't really spend a whole lot of time outside today due to the heat, but the indoor facilities aren't really air conditioned, so not only was it hot...it was also stuffy.

One plus about today: double swim time for my camp group. The pool at my camp is really cold. I , not having a whole lot of insulation, hates getting in the cold pool. Today, however, I was super happy to have a place to cool off.


After work, I was lucky enough to get a creemee with my father. For all of you who don't know what a creemee is, it's soft serve ice cream--Vermont style. Today, I got a maple and chocolate twist creemee. It was sooooo good. Sorry I didn't take a pic for you all.

Anywho, I tried my first breakfast cookie this morning. I took the Fitnessista's recipe and modified it a tad. I mixed together 1/3 cup oats, 1 tbsp peanut butter, a mashed banana, splash of soymilk, and a crap-load of cinnamon last night. I then spread it out on a plate and let it chill in the fridge last night. This morning I topped it with a container of vanilla greek yogurt. I must say that I was slightly disappointed. The cookie wasn't bad; it was just kind of bland. I prefer my yogurt messes. Any suggestions to how I can improve my breakfast cookie?? I'm definitely willing to try it again. Also, I really like cold breakfasts. What else can I have besides yogurt messes? (I know cereal is an option, but I find that cereal gets too soggy in milk too quickly...haha)

The infamous breakfast cookie: Quaker Oats, PB & Co. Mighty Maple

peanut butter, mashed nanner, cinnamon, Silk vanilla soymilk, Brown Cow

vanilla greek yogurt

Here's a lunch pic from lunch yesterday: (Yes this picture was taken in my fridge. I made lunch and then the phone rang. It ended up being a long convo, and I didn't want my lunch to get warm, so I let the whole plate chill in the fridge...haha)

Yesterday's Lunch: PB &J on whole wheat, freeze dried

strawberries and bananas, sliced apples, Country Choice

fmini frosted gingerbread cookies

Oh, and a pic of the pathetic parrot I drew in Arts and Crafts at work today:

Yes, I know; I have the artistic talent of a five year old, and I'm 

proud of it!

One more thing before I go...Did any of you watch the Bachelorette last night. Jake and Vienna.???Holly Cow!! Wha'd you guys think? Who's at fault?

Happy 4th of July!

Happy 4th of July everyone! How are you all spending this glorious holiday? Unfortunately, this chica isn't doing anything too exciting. Most of my friends are out of town for the weekend or are working....poo. I've been spending some quality time with the family this weekend, though. Yesterday, I went to see The Karate Kid with my pops and then we went out to dinner at UNO's. I had the BBQ chicken pizza. It was delic'! Sorry, no pics, but if you all head to UNO's, you can try the pizza for yourselves : )

Okay, Jayden Smith may not win any academy awards

anytime soon, but he sure is little cutie in this movie!

I spent some more time with my dad today. I went to run some errands with him and then we went downtown. We went to Breugger's for lunch, and I got a honey oat bagel with strawberry yogurt cream cheese. It was okay, but I probably wouldn't get it again. Oh, and I also had some Mott's apple sauce on the side. Afterwards, I did some shopping. I wanted to get some clothes for work, but I couldn't find anything. I did manage to snag this cute bowl, though. Score!

A little childish? Yes, but perfect for me--a little kid at heart

Later in the afternoon, I went and got ice cream with my dad and we took a walk along a local river. We had a good time, indeed!

In other news, my appointment with my nutritionist went pretty well. I was weighed and my weight did go up slightly. She would have liked to see it go up more, but she was pleased to see that I managed to gain a little bit despite being sick and recently starting a new--not to mention--active job. She didn't really change my meal plan much, but if my weight gain continues to slow down, I'm pretty sure a big cal increase is coming my way. This is definitely scary but I've come to accept that at times recovery is very scary; however, it is what is needed.

Anyways, I still don't have my camera. I did manage to snag a few phone pics, though. They aren't very high quality, but they are better than nothing, right?

Lunch one day--Lender's cinnamon raisin bagel w/ PB & Co. 

Mighty Maple peanut butter & Laughing Cow wedge, sliced apples

w/ cinnamon, freeze dried strawberries & bananas, and Country 

Choice chocolate cookie

Morning Snack--Blueberry Crisp Clif Bar...yum!

Quick dinner--Kashi Southwest Style Chicken (Didn't like this...

some ketchup made it taste better, though...yes I'm weird, I know)

& Alexandria Whole Wheat and Flaxseed Roll w/ Laughing Cow

Wedge

Sideways picture of my cute Vera Bradley lunchbox

Once again I apologize for my crappy phone pictures. I really need to get my camera back. I have just been so busy, though. 

Okay, well I'm off to eat dinner with my family, play with some sparklers, and watch the fireworks on tv. Very lame 4th of July... I know. Tomorrow, I'm not really sure what my plans are. Hopefully, spend some time with my amigos, sleep in, more family time, TV marathons, outside time??? Time will tell. I do know one thing about tomorrow, though. It's supposed to be 93 degrees here....Holey Moley! Today, it's 87 and I feel like I'm going to melt. And then Tuesday, it's back to work. Although work is really long and busy, I love it!

One more thing before I go...I've been thinking a lot about the 4th of July and how it is a celebration of the United States breaking away from England. We celebrate the holiday because a lot of hard work went into gaining independence from oppressive England. Just like the United States had to work extremely hard to gain independence from England, I have to work extremely hard to gain independence from Ed. Just a thought.

Happy Independence Day!

I'm so sorry I've been MIA

Sorry, I haven't posted recently guys. I have a few good excuses for not blogging, though:

1)I still don't have my camera (it's still at my friend's)

2)I'm working 40+ hours a week at a day camp as a counselor and all my free time is consumed by Ed appointments.

3) Any real free time I have had has been spent with family and friends.

4) I've been sick for the past few days.

So, I'm sorry for not updating you all on my super exciting life (not really that exciting...haha), but I'll be back posting soon. I just need to remember to pick up my camera next time I see my friend. Believe it or not, I have seen this particular friend twice in the last week, and both times I have forgot to ask for my camera. Dumb ol' me.

In other news, I have a weigh in tomorrow. I haven't been weighed in two weeks, so I'm a bit nervous. I've been following my meal plan for the most part, but I have been skipping a little bit. I've let Ed use "being busy" as an excuse to miss a few snacks. Additionally, I have been sick the past few days. Although I have been eating like I normally do, I feel like everything is just going in one end and out the other (do you catch my drift?) I don't actually find out my weight at weigh-ins, but my nutritionist usually lets me know if I gain, maintain, or lose. Let's hope for the best.

Well, it's dinner time. Believe it or not, I'm actually letting my mom cook dinner these days. Usually, when we have family meals, I insist on cooking or at least closely supervising everything my mom prepares, but after working with kids all day, I really couldn't give a crap if my mom follows recipes to the tee. My next challenge is to let her choose recipes to make.

Okay, that's about all I got for you. Hopefully, I'll get my camera back soon, so I can hit you up with some lovely food pics.

Happy Monday Everyone! Wait, is happy Monday an oxymoron?

Busy, Busy, Busy!

Once again, this isn't going to be a quick and short post. There are two reasons behind my lack of postage as of late. Numero uno, I still haven't found my camera....poo. Numero dos, I have been unbelievably busy lately. I ended up landing a full-time summer camp counselor position. I'm super excited about the position, and I love the job so far. However, I have little time for blogging. Hopefully, I'll find my camera and have some free time this weekend to inform you all of the happenings and eats of my life. So exciting, I know.

Well, that's about all this busy bee has to say!

On a final note, it's almost the weekend! Yay!!!!

Later bloggies!

I lost my camera : (

Yep, dumb ol' me here misplaced my camera somewhere. I think I may have left it at a friend's house over the weekend. Let's hope so! It's a real bummer, though, because I have tons of fun pics for y'all.

I'll keep this post short, because there's no pics.....and well, that's no fun. I just wanted to let you know, though, that I had an awesome weekend. There were bonfires, swimming, hot tubs, s'mores, movies, FRIENDS, and s'mores. Yep, you heard me right; this girl told Ed to screw off and ate some delicious s'mores!

Yumm!!

This weekend also involved....let's call them adult beverages. I'll be honest with you all. I almost never drink. I really don't think alcohol is necessary to have fun. However, I was with some of my favorite girlies in the whole world Saturday night, and I just decided to let go. Ed usually tells me that consuming alcohol will make me fat, lose control, and will make people look down on me. Guess what I told ed. I told him to screw off! (Sorry for the not so nice language there) I had a great time, I woke up no fatter, I didn't lose control, and I bonded with my friends. Will I be drinking regularly now? Probably not, because I know I can have fun without alcohol, but every once in a blue moon when opportunity strikes, I'm not going to let Ed ruin my fun. 

Right now, I'm really nervous. I'm not sure if I made the right decision pertaining to a summer job. I was offered a job as a sub counselor at a summer camp on Friday. I had another job interview today for a different camp. I really want to work at this camp, but I won't find out if I get the job until the end of the week. The problem: training for the other camp starts Wednesday. Earlier today, I was at a complete loss as of what to do. After some serious thinking, I decided the best thing to do was be honest. I emailed the employer from the sub job and told him my situation. I said I would be willing to go through training and continue with the job if I don't get offered the other job. I'm not sure if it will help my situation at all, but it can't hurt. I'm keeping my fingers crossed.

Well, that's all I have to say. I promise I'll start tracking down my camera, so I can hit you up with all my eats and such. After all, this is a food blog : )

Have a good week everyone!

By the way, what does everyone have going on this week? Anything exciting? Challenging? Completely insane?

Decisions, Decisions...

Well howdy hi blogworld,

I've been super busy, and I still am super busy, but I figured that my hiatus from blogging had been long enough and that  a real post was long overdue. So, here I am, filling you in on all the happenings in my life. Lucky you...

Okay, so you are probably wondering what the title of my post is all about. Well, I'm having a hard time deciding what to do about a summer job. As many of you know, I am currently subbing for a local school district. I absolutely love this job and I sub almost every day, but unfortunately, school ends next week and it doesn't start up again until I have to go back to school. So, one would logically think that would leave muah unemployed for the rest of the summer. Well, not exactly. I have options; I just need to decide what to do. I applied for this job at a summer camp run by my college aimed at little kiddies. I've talked to the director of the camp, and I'm pretty sure I can get this position, but it would probably only be full time for about 3 and 1/2 weeks and then I would be the on-call sub. The other job I applied for entails me working at a day camp for kids run by the humane society. If I got this job, I would be working full time for all of July and half of August. Personally, I would rather have this jobs because it involves kids and animals (my two favorites) and it has more hours. However, I haven't heard anything back from the people running the camp yet (I just applied yesterday...haha), so I don't know if I would get the job. I'm pretty sure, however, that I can get the college day camp job. I go to the college that runs it, and I have talked to the director and he seems pretty interested. I have an interview on Friday for the college camp job, so I guess I better make up my mind fast!

Anywho, I've been a pretty busy lady lately. I've been subbing almost every day, seeing friends, hanging out with the fam, going to appointments in hopes of kicking Ed in the ass, and eating ALL the time. Seriously, I feel like all I do is eat, but hey, I gotta do what I gotta do to say goodbye to Ed, right?

Okay, I'm just going to hit you up with some random food pics that have accumulated on my camera over the past week or so. I'm sorry for the lack of organization here...haha

Dessert Yogurt Mess-Vanilla Chobani, Chocolate Vitatop, & 

PB&Co. Mighty Maple

Lender's Cinnamon Swirl Bagel w/ PB& Co. Mighty Maple &

Laughing Cow, apple slices w/ cinnamon, & Barabra's Rite Rounds 

w/ Laughing Cow, eaten along side unpictured Honest Tea

Cranberry Lemonade

Maple Nut Clif Bar...So freakin' good!!!!!!

Back to Nature whole wheat mac & cheese, sliced chicken breast

, and peas, eaten with a glass of Silk chocolate soy milk

Breakfast Yogurt Mess-Brown Cow Plain Greek Yogurt, Kashi 

Golean, sliced nanner, PB&Co. Dark Chocolate Dreams

I do have more food pics chilling on my memory card, but I'm too lazy to go get my camera and plug the memory card into my computer. Have no fear, though. Here are some pictures I took outside while enjoying the beautiful weather:

Mommy's flowers

I've been reading this.....ah it's okay-not great

I planted these : )

And the pup!

Well, I’m off to go watch some television. What’s on the lineup tonight? Ughh…too much to watch. Losing it With Jillian, One Big Happy Family, The Little Couple, & The Celtics Game. Seeing that I have to get up at the crack of dawn tomorrow to sub, I won’t get to watch all this tonight, but thank gosh for Tivos!

One more thing before I go…when looking at some of the tv shows I watch, I realize that a lot of them revolve around weight loss. I’ve sometimes wondered if this feeds my ED or is simply counterproductive seeing that I am trying to gain—not lose weight. After some contemplation, though, I’ve realized that although I’m not trying to lose weight like the people on these shows, we have very similar goals. We want to get healthy, so we can live our lives to the fullest.

Just a thought….

Have a good night everyone! It’s almost humpday….yay!