Simmerin' Saturday

Hello blogaroos,

It's still hot in the Northeast. Despite the heat, I hope you all are having relaxing and wonderful weekends to recharge your batteries for the week ahead.

I don't have anything super important to talk about in the midst of this heat wave nor did I do anything super exciting today, but I had a fun day nonetheless. I thought I'd just recap my day and my eats for you all.

I woke up at 7am this morning. I know that's early, but I get up at 5am for my job on weekdays, so it's hard to reset my body's clock for the weekends. To be honest, I woke up and was wide awake at 4:30am this morning. Seeing I went to bed around 11:30 last night, though, I knew I needed some extra sleep, so I forced myself to go back to sleep.

Upon waking up this morning, I laid in bed and watched two episodes of this splendid show....

I must admit, it's not as good as the original. I miss

my Randy!

I then headed downstairs to put some breakfast together. I was craving chocolate this morning, so a chocolate covered strawberry bowl it was.

2% Strawberry Fage, chocolate Vitatop, Teddy's PB w/ ground

flaxseed, sliced strawberries, and some 'nanner...yum!

One delicious breakfast and two cups of coffee later, I got dressed and headed to the gym. Usually I put in a long run on Saturdays. After running at 5am yesterday, with 80 degree early morning temps, and air nearly as thick as jello, I decided I'd take my workout indoors today. I stayed away from the treadmill because a) I really don't enjoy it b)I've ran a lot this week and am a little bit sore from a NROLFW workout yesterday and c) I can't read on the treadmill. After seeing Harry Potter last weekend, I started reading the books all over again. Oh, how I love Harry Potter. Anyways, I did a 60 minute elliptical workout. I usually find the elliptical boring, but how can one be bored immersed in the wonderful world of Harry Potter? : ) Overall, it was a good workout. Even in the air conditioned gym, I managed to get my sweat on.

This book always elicits such memories

of the 3rd grade...1st time I read it when 

my teacher read this book aloud to us!

Once I got home from the gym, I showered, and then headed to lunch with the madre. She brought me to a small cafe called Penny Cluse. I love this place! It's so quaint, always crowded, and features local, fresh, mainly organic food.

Scrambled egg whites and whole wheat toast with 

jam and peanut butter (The pb was a dollar extra

but totally worth it...gotta get my healthy fats on!)

No meal is complete without humungo side of fresh fruit! (Sorry

for the blurry iphone pics)

After lunch, I helped my mom shop for two new chairs for our front lawn. She finally settled on two cream colored Adirondack chairs. My mom opted out of paying the extra $30 dollars per chair for assembly, so my dad's going to have fun tomorrow magically turning about 40 pieces of wood and 80 screws into two chairs.

My mom and I also stopped at Old Navy. I spent some time looking around, and initially I didn't find much. While I was waiting for my mom, though, I wandered into the children's section and saw some great sales. Then a great idea dawned on me...I could probably fit into a kid's XL. I found a few shirts and was too lazy to try them on, so I compared them to the adult smalls, and guess what? They were the same size!

Shopping in the kid's section? No shame...No shame....

Finally, I made a stop at the grocery store with my mom to pick up some major foodage for the week ahead....gotta stay fueled to keep up with all the kiddos!

When I got home, I spent about an hour chilling in the hammock, once again immersed in the world of Harry Potter. I just started reading the Sorcerer's Stone yesterday (for about the millionth time), and I'm already 2/3rds of the way through. It's amazing how fast I can breeze through a good book.

Around 6:30, dinner was calling my name. I was feeling kind of lazy tonight, so I microwaved an Amy's Teryaki Bowl and threw in some steamed microwaved Green Giant veggies. Hommade, no? Yummy, yes!

Easy peasy meal

I rounded my night off by watching Rango with my dad. The verdict??? I am a huge sucker for Children's animations, especially of the computerized (is that a word?) variety, but this one was a little bit to....out there....for me.

Now, I'm catching up on some blogs and enjoying this baby, which looks a lot like breakfast, which is fine by me.

Chobani vanilla greek yogurt, chopped up chocolate Vitatop, and 

PB&CO. mighty maple PB

Tomorrow, I'm either going to run in the morning or go on a long bike ride with my dad. The heat is finally supposed to break tomorrow. It's only supposed to be in the low 80s! Later, I'm going to grab a bite to eat with a friend and then head to the movies. I really want to see Winnie the Pooh, but no one really wants to see it with me. I think my friend and I are either going to see Harry Potter again or Horrible Bosses.

Enjoy the remainder of your weekend!

Questions: 
1)What's your favorite digital animation movie?
2)Any fun plans for Sunday?

Silly Kristy

When I originally started thinking about this post, I wanted to call it "Stupid Kristy"--well because I'm a little angry at myself about a decision I made last night. After thinking about it, though, I realized it does no good to beat myself up emotionally about a decision I made. Even if I wish I would have "decided" differently, it's in the past now, and the only thing I can do is move forward.

Okay, before you click away from my page because you are completely confused and have no idea what I'm talking about let me explain...

For starters, I did go to the pot luck party after I got out of work last night, and I had a pretty good time. The hostess of the party is vegan, so there were plenty of healthy options at the party. The offerings included a cous-cous salad, fresh veggies and hummus, corn on the cob, roasted potatoes, and much-much more. For dessert, there were cupcakes of many different varieties and the chocolate chip cookies I brought. Since I decided to have a beer or two last night, I didn't really partake in dessert. I had a couple bites of a cookie, but honestly, the heat turned my appetite off basically. Anyways, the party was fun, and I got to catch up with some friends that I haven't seen in a couple weeks. I wish I would have taken some pictures because the pot luck was honestly too cute for words.

So...why am I mad at myself  do I regret the decision I made last night??? Well, let me bring you back to earlier in the day yesterday. At work yesterday, I was invited to go out with a group of my coworkers last night. A group of us who are 21 and over have been talking about going out for a while. When last night was decided as "the night" yesterday, I wasn't sure if I would originally go or not. After all, I had just worked 50 hours and I was already committed to my friend's pot luck party. When people kept asking me if I was coming or not yesterday, though, I finally caved in and asked what time everyone was planning on going out. To my surprise, people told me between 9pm and 10pm. In my book, that is really early, which is a great thing because I'm not a night owl to be honest. My old roommates and good friends at school usually don't go out 12pm at the earliest. Going out so late always presents a huge challenge for me, so I was pleasantly surprised to find out that my coworkers weren't of the same breed as many of my friends at school. Because of this, I said I'd probably go out with them after the potluck party.

Okay, I'm about to sound like a middle school girl, but the only reason I really wanted to go out with my coworkers was because--well, I have a huge...and I mean huge--crush on the other assistant director. While I am the assistant director of counselors and campers, he is the assistant director of activities and activity leaders. He's super cute, great with kids, and plans to go to med school. He's super nice too. I knew he was planning on going out, so I definitely was interested in spending time with him outside of work.

During the potluck party last night, his name came up because a lot of my friends know him and think he is a really super guy. They all encouraged me to go out with him last night. To be honest, though, I was super tired and kind of just wanted to go home. When I got a text from this guy around 9:00, though, saying that everyone was going out at 11:00, I was super torn as to weather I should just head home or stick around and then go out later in the night. Although I really wanted to go out with him, doing so would push me way out of my comfort zone. Although I go out occasionally, I almost always go out with my group of good friends, we get ready together, go to the bars together, go home together, etc. Doing everything by myself and meeting my group of coworkers at the bars just didn't feel right to me.

Around 9:30, I decided to just head home, even though this guy was texting me, telling me how much fun going out would be. Once I got home, I kind of regretted my decision to go home, immediately. To make matters worse, I woke up at 4:30 this morning to a text from one of my friends who went out and ran into him (the two are good friends). Apparently, he was asking my friend where I was and why I didn't go out.

To sum it up, I feel pretty stupid silly for choosing the comfort of my routine and for sticking with the familiar instead of taking a risk and going out with my coworkers, including the guy I really like. Although I know I had some good reasons, not to go.....

I was exhausted because I had been up since 5AM and had just completed a 50 hour work week


I didn't look that great because I never got a chance to go home, straighten my hair, do my makeup properly, etc.


Didn't have anyone to walk to the bars with (although I probably could have found someone)


Didn't want to drink more than a beer or two because I was planning on driving home that night (I could have stayed at my sorority house--seeing a lot of my friends lived there, and I used to live there)


I know that the eating disorder side of my brain also played into my decision....


Extra drinks mean more calories


Staying out later will disrupt my Saturday routine


I might not make it to the gym the next day


My good friends won't be there for support


All in all, I think I partly made a reasonable decision, but I also think that I partly didn't go out because of fear. I can't dwell, though; it's not the end of the world. I still am working with this guy, and there will probably be other opportunities to go out. And even if there aren't, I still have a lot of other things going for me...

I'm physically healthy


I have a family who loves me


I have good friends


I am in College and am close to being finished


I have a great job


I have dorky but lovable pets


The list goes on and on! Sorry that this post is picture-less. I have food post coming the evening of tomorrow morning.

Hot!

Hello bloggers,

I'm sure the title of this post is pretty self-explanitory. It's hot, and by hot, I mean really really hot! I believe our high today was 98 degrees or something crazy like that. The heat index reached 105 degrees!

I guess it was a good day to visit an ice cream factory then, right? Well, sort of. At camp, we took the kiddos to the Ben and Jerry's factory which is about a 40 minute bus ride from camp. Because of the long bus ride, we wanted to give the kids a lot of time at the factory. We were there from 10-2. Although it was cool in the factory, we spent most of our time outside, eating lunch, playing on the playground, seeing the cows, and visiting the flavor graveyard. Basically, we were outside for 3 and a half out of the 4 hours we were there. 

Despite the extremely hot temperatures, the trip was really fun! We got to sample ice cream. More specifically, we got to be taste testers and got to sample the Americone Dream  flavor. It was really good! The flavor was comprised of vanilla ice cream, a caramel swirl, and chocolate covered waffle cone pieces. Although I was perfectly satisfied with the sample, a lot of the campers were disappointed because we didn't actually get to have ice cream cones. Last year we did because we went on a slow day and they gave us free coupons. That didn't happen this year, and at 4 dollars a pop, it wasn't in the camp budget to purchase 120 ice cream cones for staff and campers. 480 dollars for ice cream....well worth it in my opinion : )

Aren't they precious?

It's Ben and Jerry! Not really, but on a side note, I did 

go to high school with Jerry's son. 

After a 5AM run this morning, working from 6:45am to 4:30pm, I'm pooped. I'm currently vegetating in the comforts of my air conditioned home. I'm doing some laundry and doing some planning for work tomorrow. Pretty soon, I'm going to make myself some dinner, do some reading, watch Jeopardy of course, and go to bed! 

I have to gear up for my super long day tomorrow. I'll be up at 5AM for work, work all day, go to an appointment right after work, and then straight to my friend's pot luck party. Some of my coworkers invited me out to the bars tomorrow night too. Whether I partake in that activity or not, I still probably be out n' about until at least 11:00 or 12:00. Super long day!!! It's okay, though, because I'm planning on relaxing the rest of the weekend. 

Hopefully, I can drag someone along to see Winnie the Pooh with me. I know it's for kids, but the preview makes me want to cry. I'm a baby...haha. 

Sorry for the post; I'm just beat. I wanted to talk about something more serious today, but I really feel like typing up a big, long, complicated post. I'll fill you in soon, though. Just some family issues I've been worried about. 

It's almost the weekend!

Questions:

1)What's your favorite ice cream flavor? Ben and Jerry's...I'd have to say Half Baked. Any other brand....I love me some cake batter (I don't like Ben and Jerry's, though...too sweet). Oh, and I also love creemees. Unfortunately, I'm lactose intolerant, though, so too much ice cream makes my tummy blow up like a ballon! No fun. 

2) What movies do you secretly love? Homeward Bound is an all time favorite of mine. 

WIAW~Lunchbox Edition

Happy Wednesday everybody!

I'm officially writing my first What I Ate Wednesday post. This post is going to be rather short though because I am beyond exhausted and still have two more long days of work to get through. Before I jump into  my eats, though, I just wanted to mention my plans for Friday night. After writing up that post, I got a text from a friend inviting me to a pot luck/birthday party Friday night. There was no need to worry about not finding anything to do. Now I need to stop myself from worrying about getting to bed at a decent hour, so I can run Saturday morning and get on with my day or about being too tired to enjoy myself Friday night. I'm not going to think about Friday night until Friday....period!

Anyways, my morning started at the glorious hour of 5AM. I got up, made myself a cup of coffee (unpictured-it was too early for pictures), checked my email, threw my stuff together, and got ready to get out the door to make it to a 6:30 AM staff meeting. Before leaving, however, I managed to find the time to unpack my lunchbox to take some pictures of my packed food for the day. I do apologize for the subpar pictures. 

My Vera Bradley Lunch Box

I made it to work in time for my staff meeting and helped lead it since I'm an assistant director this year. Afterwards, I was starving, so I devoured my packed Clif Bar and banana. Once I finished my rather boring breakfast, I was busy checking campers in and informing my counselors of the "game plan" -so to speak-for the day. 

Peanut Butter Clif Bar & a 'nanner

Once all the campers were checked in, I took my lunch break bright and early to crank out a 4 mile run. I have to admit that it wasn't my best run. Although I was energized and ready to run, it was already pretty hot by 8:00 AM. I also just felt like I was moving in slow motion. I think I need to give my legs a break. It's hard, though, because I feel obligated to run when I'm scheduled to. And, during the week, I only have 40 minute blocks of time (really less when you consider prepping for a run) to devote to running. Since I have such short blocks of time, I can't run very long or far....thus I feel obligated to run often to get my miles in. 

Anyways, after my run, I met my campers down at the pool and gladly jumped in the cold water. My camp takes place at my college's athletic facility, so we use a NCAA pool, which has to be kept on the cold side for all of the beastly swimmers who create heat while swimming their tail ends off. After pool time, I quickly showered. 

I spent the next hour or so in the office, taking care of administrative duties. My campers ate snack and went to arts and crafts during this time. Once I got my boring paper work and phone calls out of the way, I got my group together to make a book list of their favorite books. The teacher in me had to make sure all my kiddos are doing some reading this summer. Surprisingly, a lot of them had a lot of good book suggestions, which shows me they love reading! 

Okay, I'm rambling. I apologize. Let's move onto lunch. 

2 Pita sandwiches-1 with peanut butter and Jelly and

the other with Brown and Brummel spread and cinnamon, 

chocolate pudding, and a big old pink lady apple!

All enjoyed in outside in the lovely 90 degree weather. At least we sat in the shade and their was a nice breeze. 

After lunch, we played some soccer, and I organized some water games for my campers to cool off. Unfortunately, 7 and 8 year olds take a long time to change and apply sunscreen, so we didn't have much time to actually play the water games. I had to get all my campers ready for edible craft club. They made these pretty awesome (but rather gross looking) bracelets, faces, and random creations out of apples, fruit loops, peanut butter, caramel, twirlers, and skittles. I wish I could have taken some pictures for you all. 

Unfortunately, while they were playing with their food, I was busy dealing with a troublesome camper. I did get a chance to have an afternoon snack, though. I had to stay fueled!

Kashi-Fire Roasted Veggie Crackers and some super sweet baby 

carrots

I ended my work day by putting together field trip packets for my counselors. We are going to the Ben and Jerry's factory tomorrow! I had to break all the campers into groups, make schedules, and figure out logistics and such. I'm super excited for tomorrow! 

Once I got home from camp, I showered, packed lunch for tomorrow, and then continued doing some planning for the rest of the camp week. 

I just enjoyed this lovely dinner cooked by mi madre!

Pita tacos-2 whole wheat pitas, salsa, Gimme Lean faux ground beef, 

and shredded cheddar cheese with a side salad....yum!

Now, I'm going to read a little bit. I'm almost done Handle With Care! Then I'm going to watch Jepordy (my secret obsession), read some blogs, and hit the hay!

Oh, before I go to bed, I'll also nosh on some Chobani vanilla Yogurt, a chocolate Vitatop, and some PB&Co. Mighty Maple Peanut butter. This snack make an appearance almost nightly in this house!

Happy Hump Day everyone!

Please click the little box above the picture to get to the link...I'm trying to figure out how to get the picture to work.)

Questions: 

1) What are some good and easy to-go breakfasts?

2) I don't think I'm linking this What I Ate Wednesday thing right. Any advice?

3) Do any thing special or exciting today?

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Last Friday Night...

Yea, we danced on tabletops, 


And we took too many shots, 


Think we kissed, but I forgot!


Last Friday night, I did none of this. Instead, I stayed home, watched some Tivo-ed Jeopardy shows, read a little, caught up on some blogs, and was in bed by the crazy hour of 10:30pm. In other words, I took some much needed me time Friday night.

And, you know what? I'm glad I did. After a 50 hour work week, I was in definite need of some me time. Usually, however, I don't stay in on Friday nights. Even if I have been up since 5am and have worked an 11 hour day, I still feel the need to do something on Friday night and be a "normal" college student. For some reason, I feel like I've failed if I don't have plans on Friday nights.

Now don't get me wrong, I'm not one to always stay in on Friday nights. When I was in the depths of my eating disorder, I almost always stayed in on Friday nights. In the past year, I've had some wild, crazy, and super fun Friday nights, though! Some of my favorite friday nights...

Getting away from school to spend

a night in the wilderness (or a lake house...

close enough : )) 

Flying down to D.C. to visit one of my best friends 

at school for the weekend...and then spending Friday 

night going out in the city!

Getting dressed up to the nines and acting like children!

Going to the Hardrock Cafe for dinner and then acting 

as if the building itself is a playground!

Spending a Friday night on the lake with some best 

friends (of course S'mores were consumed later in the

night). 

Welcoming some awesome new members to my Sorority

Dressing up for Spring Formal 

I guess I need to learn that it's okay if not every Friday night is super exciting. There's nothing wrong with spending Friday night by myself and watching reruns of Say Yes to the Dress! I also need to work on not worrying about Friday night ahead of time. Last week, I had to make a conscious decision to stay in and accept it. I often worry that if I stay in, it is because of my eating disorder. I spent the better part of the second half of last week worrying about what would happen if I stayed in Friday night. Would I end up wasting my whole weekend?

You know what happened?

I got some much needed me time...

got up early the next morning, went on a 20 mile bike ride with my dad, then went to lunch with him, helped him run errands and saw Harry Potter!

Then on Sunday, I spent the day downtown with two of my oldest and best friends.

In other words, everything turned out perfectly fine! There was no need to worry in the first place.

So, why on my way home from work today did I find myself already worrying about what I would do this Friday night?

Maybe, I can get one of my friends to go see the Winnie the Pooh movie with me?

Maybe, I'll hang out with my college friends (who are here for the summer) and go to the bars with them?

But, what if I'm up too late?

What I drink too much and don't feel like running in the morning?

What I don't drink at all, so I can make it home and don't have a good time?

Or maybe I can go to a friend's house and have pizza and watch a movie?

But wait, I'm going to have Pizza on Thursday....Is it really okay to eat Pizza two nights in a row??

STOP....Dear Brain, thank you for your input, but please shut the **** up! It's Tuesday. I still have three days of work to get through before I need to worry about Friday night. I should really start worrying about Friday night on Friday afternoon....not on Tuesday.

Even though I know this, I guess I feel more in control if I worry about it, and try to start making plans now. You know what, though? I'm really just going to stress myself out more. I'll probably make plans and they will change. So I'm just going to go with the flow, roll with the punches, and worry about here and now. And, if I don't end up doing something on Friday night, it's not the end of the world!

Okay, well I have stuff to do, so I'm going to stop rambling.

Before I go, though, I just wanted to touch on something in regards to yesterday's post. I did end up running. Not only that, but I did so bright and early. I went to bed super early last night and woke up feeling energized and whipped out a 4 mile run in about 34 minutes. There was no reason to obsess about this yesterday. I listened to my body (my body wanted to run early), devoted my attention to running while I was running, and that was that. Now, I need to stop thinking about tomorrow's run.

4 miles...check! And it's not even 6:30 

yet! 

Bye blog-a-boos!

Do you ever worry about what you are going to do on Friday nights way ahead of time?

How do you handle early morning runs?

Guilty as Charged....

This post is going to be on the short side because this girl just worked ten and a half hours....with 36 kids!

Anyways, I just wanted to quickly talk about exercise and my somewhat unhealthy relationship with it. When I first developed an eating disorder over three years ago, I definitely developed an addiction to exercise. I would spend one to two hours on the elliptical, bike all the time, go to a bunch of group classes, etc. I was exercising almost every day and definitely under-fueling myself. As the months went by, however, and I got weaker, I gave up exercise. I didn't really start exercising again until a about a year ago. 

For the past year, I think I've maintained a pretty healthy relationship with exercise. I mainly run, but I also bike, go to yoga occasionally, and strength train. I'm pretty good about compensating for the calories I burn. I also would say that I look forward to exercise for the most part. 

So what am I guilty of, exactly?

Well, I'm guilty of feeling guilty when I don't exercise or exercise enough (If that makes any sense at all). 

Today is a perfect example. This weekend I biked 20 miles with my dad on Saturday and ran 5 miles yesterday. I was planning on taking my lunch break at work to run another 3.5-4 miles) this morning (I usually take my lunch in the morning and eat with the kiddos later in the day). Well, I was kind of in a funk this morning and didn't feel like running at all. So, did I take a rest day? No, I didn't. I decided to a NROLFW workout today and run stairs in the hockey rink later in the afternoon instead. The rational part of my brain knows it would perfectly fine to take a rest day, but this is where I still struggle with disordered eating exercise thoughts. It's not like I think I'm going to ballon up in one day and gain 10 pounds; its more that I feel I will lose motivation if I take an unscheduled rest day. Crazy, right? 

Since I didn't get my planned run in this morning, I was kind of grumpy and anxious throughout the morning. Although I was responsible for the activities and safety of three counselors and thirty six kids, all I could think about was what I would do at the gym. First off, this is ridiculous because the NROLFW is a very structured program, so it's not like I had to come up with a routine for myself. Secondly, my job is more important. My disordered brain usually won't let me relax, however, until I get my exercise in for the day. If I don't exercise in the morning, I feel like I'll lose motivation and won't exercise at all. I know I need to change my thinking regarding this. If I plan to workout in the afternoon, I should go about my morning and think about the "here and now" of the morning and worry about my workout when I'm working out. Now, this is rational a lot more rational thinking. 

As for tomorrow, I'm planning on doing the same 3.5-4 mile run during my break that I was planning on doing today. I'm also considering doing it first thing in the morning when I wake up before I head to work. I usually like to have some breakfast in me before I run, though. And without getting up before 5, I would have to either run on an empty belly or a full belly to accomplish this. I need to stop stressing about my run tomorrow, though. I'll figure it out, and if I don't run or it's not the greatest, it's not the end of the world. 

Anyways, on a more lighter note, here is a picture of the delicious dinner cooked by my momma tonight: 

Restaurant size Morningstar blackbean burger, spinach, 

baked sweet potato rounds, and some chili/lime corn

on the cob. 'Twas delicious. I was planning on eating the burger

in a pita, but we were all out : (

Well, seeing that I have to get up around 5am tomorrow for work, I'm going to wrap this post up. I need to catch up on everyone else's blogs and get in some quality reading time before bed. I'm 2/3rds of the way through this book and absolutely in love with it. 

Happy Monday y'all!

How do you deal with exercise guilt when you don't exercise?

Any good books you've been reading lately? 

Guess Who's Back?

Back again....Kristy's back....tell a blogger friend.

Okay, lame...I know, I know. I just had to use Eminem lyrics (although I have to say I'm not a huge fan of him, especially of that song in particular) to tell you all that I'm going to give blogging another go. I'm sorry I made a huge disappearance on you all last August....almost a year ago. Almost a year ago?!?!? I can't believe a whole year has gone by. My-oh-my, how time flies! While I haven't been blogging myself, I've been reading everyone else's blogs pretty consistently.

Anyways, you're probably wondering what I have been up to this past year. Right?

Well, I've been up to a lot, but to be honest, I don't even know where to start.

For one, I finished my junior year of college. Although I often overlook this, it is a pretty big accomplishment.

I've been a very active member of my sorority....

Spring '11 Formal

Had a lot of fun times with great friends.....

80's workout night!

Myrtle Beach Aquarium 

 Enjoyed some good vegetarian eats. I've been a veggie for over a year now!

Thai food...mmmmm. This stir fry was legit

the spiciest thing I've ever eaten!

 Kicked some behind at some races-5ks, 10ks, and trail races...I'm thinking about doing a half this fall(more to come on that later)...

4th of July 5k (A hot one for sure!)

 Traveled with the chicas...

Gotta love the beach!

Recently started weight lifting....

Yep, I jumped on the bloggie bandwagon, 

purchased, and read this book. 

And landed the assistant director position at the summer camp I worked at as a counselor last summer, and I'm currently working 11 hour days!

A few of my kiddos : )

I've been pretty busy to say the least. If I'm going to be 100% honest, though, I must admit that my eating disorder has taken control over some small aspects of my life again. Although I'm 100 times stronger than I was 2 years ago, I must admit that I'm not as spontaneous or indulgent as I was a year to six months ago. Although I eat enough and am very involved in the "real world" and am an active participant in my life, I sometimes feel like I've become too health focussed or think too much about exercise. I eat healthy most of the time and spend too much thinking about healthy foods. I also feel like I schedule exercise into my day and make it a top priority.

On the other hand, I sometimes feel like I got to a point where I was almost "too recovered" from my eating disorder. I know that sounds absurd. How can one be too recovered from an eating disorder??? Well, "too recovered" is probably the wrong phrase. I guess, I could say I forced myself to be too spontaneous, too indulgent, and too fun to prove to myself and all those around me that I was 100% covered from my eating disorder. And as far as exercise goes, I feel like it's such a mood lifter and love how strong it makes me feel. Crossing the finish line at a race and achieving a PR is one of the best feeling evah'! Also, right now, I'm working 11 hours a day, so I feel the need to stick to a strict exercise routine. So, thinking about where I am now....maybe I've just learned to balance things and find a happy medium between being the girl who never goes out and has to control everything and the girl who goes out every weekend and is up for anything.

I think part of it is a balance thing and part of it is Ed rearing his ugly head.

Hopefully, blogging once again will help me figure everything out and be the real Kristy....not "controlled by Ed" Kristy and not "Counter Ed" Kristy--just Kristy. I have a lot more to share....a lot of good things and a few...well, not so good things, but I'm a busy lady, so I've got to get on with my Sunday afternoon.

Have a good Sunday blog-a-boos!


A few questions for you: 


After recovering from an eating disorder, did you ever find yourself doing things you didn't truly enjoy or find yourself pushing yourself too far just to prove you were recovered? 


How do you incorporate exercise into a busy lifestyle? On days when you can't exercise, how do you deal with negative thoughts?


Any fun plans for the weekend..or the remainder of it anyways? (I just went out to lunch and the beach with two of my oldest and best friends)