Wednesday, August 18, 2010

Living My Life!

Hello blog world!

I'm so sorry I haven't posted in like forever. I kept telling myself I was going to post,  but I was always just to busy. Doing what?....you may ask. LIVING LIFE! Yep, you heard me right. I've been overcoming Ed and enjoying my summer like every other college student should be.

I spent most of my summer working. I was working almost 50 hours a week. Yes, it was a lot of hours, but I truly enjoyed my job this summer. Every day I got spend time with the funniest, sweetest, happiest (and sometimes brattiest) kids in the state of Vermont! My job was essentially to take care of these kids during the day in a summer camp setting. Helping kids take care of themselves really showed me how important it is to take care of my self. Kids at camp always copied what I did and looked up to me as a roll model. Well, roll models have to nourish their bodies. There is no if, ands, or buts about it. My job was also physically draining. I know there would be no way I could make it through the day with out giving my body the nourishment it needed and deserved.

I also liked my job this summer because it allowed me to form more relationships with people at my school.  Last year, I transferred to my school and immediately joined a sorority. I love my sisters to death, but last year they were really the only people I spent time with on campus. Working with other college students outside of the sorority (who are education majors...may I add) was nice. I formed some close bonds with some of these people. The night before the last day of work, we all went out had dinner and then partied after at one of my coworkers apartments. That night, I wasn't counting calories or worried about the nutritional info of everything I was putting into my mouth. Instead, I was having fun! I really hope to further develop some of these relationships when school starts back up in a few weeks.

When work ended, I realized that I had a few weeks with no set plans. Although I was excited to sleep in after getting up at 5:00am for work almost every day this summer, I was worried about how I would fill my time and prevent Ed from filling it. One thing I really struggle with right now is unscheduled time or time when I am not busy. When I'm not doing anything, Ed tends to make me think about food and all of my worries in life. Luckily, though, I've managed to keep myself pretty busy. I've spent a lot of time with some of my best friends and my family.....

I've seen a lot of movies with my best friend Elaine, including....

Charle St. Cloud: Zac Efron is a hottie!



Despicable Me: So cute!



Inception: so confusing but really really good!


Spent time at the beach with my besties......
Jet skis are awesome!


Relaxing on the dock



Just thinking and taking in the beauty of my surroundings...



Two of my friends fighting over the tube


Had bonfires with my friends.....

Our beautiful bonfire on a windy night



Two of my friends...roasting Marshmallows....I think???


Chillin'


Gone to amusement parks with my family....

My dad and I waiting n line at the Great Escape!

Biked with my dad (yes, I'm allowed to exercise now)

Vermont countryside is so pretty!

Got a new car!


2010 Rav 4....yes, my dad had to take a picture of me in front of 
it...haha

Enjoyed beautiful sunsets with good company...
Can't really see the sunset here because we are in the way



And relaxed!

Well, kind of....


In recovery related news, I'm doing pretty well. I'm not sure if my nutritionist meant to tell me this, but at my appointment last week, she mentioned that I am only 8 pounds away from my goal weight (a bmi of 19). 8 pounds......It really isn't that much. I thought I had a lot more weight to gain. In some weighs finding out I didn't have a lot of weight left to gain got Ed going. I thought I had more weight to gain, so I thought I was at a lower weight. This gets Ed telling me I am fat. However, knowing my approximate weight doesn't change the shape of my body. Nothing has changed except now I know some numbers and am aware of how well I am doing. In some ways, knowing I only have 8 pounds left to gain makes it easier because 8 pounds isn't that much, and my body isn't going to be that much different with 8 pounds of extra weight (aka: health). Case and point: 8 pounds...I can do this!

And now onto the food....

Margarita Grilled Chicken (with ketchup), eaten at  Chili's, with a 
friend



PB&J on whole wheat...I made one for me and some for my friends
when we went to the beach!


Van's Whole Wheat Waffles with syrup (not shown) & Yoplait
 Greek Strawberry Yogurt

Subway! Turkey & swiss on honey wheat 9 grain bread w/ lettuce
& honey mustard with a side of baked sour cream & cheddar Ruffles

Yogurt mess: Chobani plain greek yogurt, Kashi Heart to Heart
Warm Cinnamon, Peanut Butter Puffins, spoonful of PB&Co. 
Mighty Maple peanut butter, sliced nanner, and a lot of cinnamon



A s'more that I devoured in 3.2 seconds....Take that Ed!

I have to admit that I have been slacking off a little food-wise. Although I'm not intentionally restricting, I am not always getting all my snacks in. Yes, I have been busy, but if I want to put Ed to rest I have to be proactive in my recovery and make sure to give my body every bit of nutrition it needs. Anyways, here are some food pictures that have accumulated over the past few weeks.

Anyways, I plan on enjoying the last few weeks of summer. I'm going to be busy, but I think that is a good thing. I'm working at a kids' scrap booking camp the rest of the week. Then next week I start job training for my part-time job this fall. Did I mention that I am working at a kids after school program this year? Well, I'm really excited for it. This job will provide me with a nice break from school, add to my resume, keep me busy, and allow me to work with kids.

Spirit week for my sorority also starts next week. I'm pretty excited to spend some time with my sorority sisters! And, the week after school starts back up. I'm a little nervous, but also pretty excited. To be honest, I'm kind of frustrated with my school this semester. They didn't give me housing, so I'll be living at home, which I have mixed feelings about. Also, they messed up my schedule. I've been working with my advisor to get the classes I need. At the end of the day, though, I can't worry about everything and resort to Ed. He won't fix my problems. Instead, I need to trust that I have done everything I can to mend the situation and live my life....now, here, in the present. And that is exactly what I intend on doing!

I'll try to post more!

Until then, keep reaching for the stars ****!


Love you all!

5 comments:

  1. yay!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! so proud of u! u are very encouraging!

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  2. So proud of you girl :) your summer looked like a ton of straight up livin! That's really cool that you work at kid summer camps. You have given me the idea of being a counselor for next summer before I go of to college. Thanks!

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  3. hye i just came across your blog. it looks like you are having an amazing summer! you sound like you are doing really well in recovery- living life and having fun. :)

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  4. You are amazing! I love reading your posts and I hope you have a wonderful school year ahead!

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  5. Reading your blog, I felt that you are living a happy life. By the way, your car looks nice. But it seems big when compared to your petite frame. Anyway, always drive safely. :)

    Ellsworth Mciltrot

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