I'm sad to say that summer camp has come to an end. As tiring and stressful as it was to supervise four consolers and ensure forty campers were having fun ten hours a day, five days a week, I'm going to miss camp dearly. It's hard to believe how close you get with your coworkers and campers in eight short weeks.
I'm looking forward to sleeping in, but to be honest, I'm a little bit apprehensive about having so much free time. I love to be busy and crave structure. I've been waiting to have a week off for such a long time. I know I should enjoy a little bit of r&r every once in a while, but for me relaxing means worrying. When I'm not busy at work, busy with school, or busy with friends, I feel like I am doing something wrong. I know this thinking is cray-cray because everyone deserves a bit of downtime! This week I'm going to work to enjoy myself when I'm not doing anything.
I'm going to miss my campers : ( They're so dang cute!
I think one reason I struggle with not being busy and relaxing is because I'm a creature of habit. For the past two months, I've been running around like a chicken with its head cut off. I've gotten used to being super busy. So...going from working fifty hours a week (and being active and social on the weekends on top of that) to having a whole week off is like going from earth to mars. I think I'm also a bit afraid that I'll get used to "doing nothing" and then have a hard time going back to be busy.
Make any sense? I know my thoughts are a little bit all over the place today. Sorry about that. I guess I just hate change. Change is healthy, so I need to embrace it. After all, I really only do have a week off.
The week after next, I am working at an art camp.
Then I'm planning on going to the big apple with one of my best friends to visit another one of my best friend! I'm so excited about this : )
Once I get back, I start staff training for the after school program I work at.
Then school starts. Between classes, my sorority, my job, and my internship, I'll be super busy and hopefully, loving every minute of it!
I think a week off is just what I need. I also have some exciting plans for this week, so I should be somewhat busy and more importantly, having fun!
I'm going to get lunch with an old friend one day this week.
I'm going to six flags this week with my mom.
I may go to Canada with a bunch of good friends for the night. (This one is a bit out of my comfort zone, so I'm not sure about it yet).
I've been talking to one of my best friends about going hiking next weekend. I really love hiking : )
I do love to hike! Especially with friends.
Okay, now that I've bored you all with my chaotic thoughts about this week, I want to backtrack and fill you in about the past two nights. Both nights I pushed myself to break out of my routine and have fun. And you know what? Everything was fine and I did have fun!
Even though I had to wake up early Friday morning, I went to the staff dinner and then went out with some friends from work after and had a few of these....
Although I was tired on Friday, I had so much fun! I pushed through the day and even managed to fit in a killer workout! 20 minutes of running stairs and a NROLFW workout. I do have to say I love weight lifting. I used to hate it and think that cardio was the only way to go, but I've learned to love the feeling of my muscles shaking after a hard set.
Last night, I wasn't going to go out because I was tired from the night before. I got in a little bit of a fight with my dad though and decided it would be good to get out of the house for a while. I got ahold of a few friends and decided to meet up with them. Before I left I made up with my dad, but I still went out anyways. So...I met up with my friends, had some good laughs along with a couple drinks. They then went to the bars and I went home because I was so tired. I had a good time, though.
I also proved to myself that it's okay to go out two nights in a row. The world will not end. I will not gain ten pounds. Life will move on and I'll have some fun!
This morning I went for a fifteen mile bike ride with my dad and then went out to lunch.
Whole wheat toast with jam, egg whites with hot sauce and
ketchup, and fresh fruit...yum
Tonight I'm going out to dinner with my mom.
Just like I can go out two nights in a row, I can also eat out twice in a day. I can make healthy choices and spend some quality time with the family.
If you stuck with me through this whole post, thanks! I know it was kind of random and long. I hope you all enjoy your weekends?
Do you struggle with change?
Do you like being busy or do you enjoy a little r&r?
What are you up to this weekend?
I am horrible when it comes to giving myself r and r. I think the only day I can do it is on a Sunday afternoon, and that is still hard to do. I love staying busy! Sometimes that worries me because I always tend to just watch the time fly by and not really take in the moment.
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